I’ve just triggered myself in a big way.
I read a post on a forum for people with personality disordered parents and the post explains how our parents start life abused or neglected and then unconsciously project shit onto us… then we leave them and they have to deal with that neglect and pain once more.
The post spoke about how sad and sorry she felt for her mother.
And now I’m totally triggered and feeling the same. Shit.
I know that it’s not my job to fix her or fix things but the thought that she felt the same way I did as a child and that I could now be repeating that pain for her makes me feel TERRIBLE.